With this year’s Mother’s Day approaching, I thought I would write a letter to my Mum and dedicate this post to her. So much has happened in the last 29 years since I saw her.
Some things she would be happy about and other things in my life she would probably be disappointed about. However the one thing that I am sure about is that no matter what I did well or what mistakes I made, she loved me unconditionally.
That is what a Mother’s love is – unconditional.
Where has the last 29 years gone? It only seems like yesterday that you were here and yet at the same time seems a lifetime ago.
So much has happened in my life since I saw you and there have been countless times I’ve wanted to pick up the phone and call you to tell you news about your grandchildren, confide in you or just have a good long chat.
You would be happy to know that between your three children, you have 8 grandchildren and 9 great grandchildren, all happy and healthy living in this busy world.
My children, Rachel and Nathan are now adults and although there have been the usual bumpy patches along the way plus a few extra grey hairs during the teenage years, I am proud of them both, the people they have become and the bonds that we share. No they are not perfect all the time but who is? I know I’m certainly not!
I’m sad that they didn’t have grandparents from an early age as they would have loved to have had their ‘Nan’ to share their life and experiences with. Grandparents are such an important part of life but unfortunately it was not to be.
Rachel is now a Mum and I wish you could see my darling grandson, your great grandson, Ethan. He will be one years old at the end of April and is such a character. He is the image of Dad and his uncle Nathan – remember how you said Nathan was the image of Dad the moment he was born? I would love you to experience the joy I do every time I see Ethan and he gives me such a beautiful, excited smile – it is the highlight of my week. Rachel suggested I be called ‘Nan’ in memory of you.
I have a letter that your Mum wrote to you when you gave birth to my brother. I thought it was such a lovely idea that I wrote one to Rachel when she had Ethan. I hope she will treasure it, as you treasured the letter from your Mum. We have a very special relationship, just like you and I had and I’m so glad that she and I could spend some quality time while she is on maternity leave.
Life has not always gone smoothly, I’ve made mistakes and done things that you probably would have disappointed you, however thanks to you as my role model I can find the strength to face the ‘not so good times’. Just know that I am happy and settled and have a wonderful husband. We have a good life, enjoy each others company and the company of our blended family (four grandchildren between us) and we love to travel.
I would love to sit and tell you my travel stories as I know you would enjoy looking at all our photos of the exciting places we have seen and the experiences we have had. I’ve flown in a helicopter over the Grand Canyon and even rode a Camel in Egypt!
I remember that we didn’t have holidays growing up, but you made sure that we did special things during the school holidays. Remember catching the bus to Manly beach or Balmoral beach for fish and chips? The things we did were simple but you always made them special.
You never let us miss out on anything, even though now I realize it was at your own expense and you went without so we didn’t have to. I remember coming home from school in 6th grade to find the beautiful pair of black and white shoes I had wanted for the school dance sitting on my bed. There are so many other examples that I am grateful for.
When I had my dance studio you were the one who came every day to sit and collect the money, talk to the mums and just enjoy being part of it all. I remember you making all the costumes for those mums who couldn’t sew just so the children didn’t miss out. You would be disappointed I didn’t continue with my dancing but life took other twists and turns.
I run now would you believe? I started at 50 and I think you would probably think I’m crazy but I enjoy entering the fun runs and even ran a marathon a couple of years ago. I run in the Mothers Day Classic every Mothers Day in memory of you and this year Rachel will join me as a first time Mum.
I’m also going to the high school reunion in May – would you believe it is 40 years ago since I left high school?
So Mum, I hope you enjoy this letter – there so much more to tell but I’m sure wherever you are, you already know.
I think of you all the time, not just on Mother’s Day and miss you. I hope that I can be half the person you were and thank you for being you. I love you!
Your loving daughter
Well that is my letter to my Mum. My message on this Mother’s Day is to treasure the time you have with your Mum as you never know how long you will have her.
Happy Mother’s Day to all Mothers – enjoy.
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