If you follow my blog or social media you would know that for the last three weeks, my husband, Mike and I have been discovering Alaska and the Canadian Rockies. We both agree that this trip was one of our best and several people commented that we looked happy and relaxed in the photos I shared.
We did have fun and for several reasons, including the night Mike even joined in to learn line dancing (he does not like dancing so I was certainly surprised) and then everyone on the tour bus was singing songs on the way home to our accommodation.
It was also wonderful to catch up and have dinner with two of my blogging friends, Donna from Retirement Reflections and Natalie from Natalie the Explorer. Mike and Richard (Donna’s husband) chatted away over dinner as if they were old friends and Donna, Natalie and I were able to chat about blogging of course! Such a highlight for me and an evening I will always remember.
So to the title of my post…..
How a compliment, a glacier and coming home gave me perspective’.
I need to make a confession – before I left for my holiday, I was feeling restless. Life wasn’t doing it for me and blogging was starting to lose it’s appeal. I felt tired. I looked forward to getting away and having some quality time with Mike as well as being in an environment where I could take some time to think clearly about my future without distraction. (apart from the gorgeous scenery of the Canadian Rockies which certainly was a wonderful distraction and a feast for the eyes!).
As I mentioned above, it was a thrill to finally catch up with one of my dearest blogging friends, Donna for dinner with our husbands when we visited Victoria on Vancouver Island. It was also a lovely bonus to have, fellow blogger, Natalie fly from Toronto to join us. I will treasure this evening and the friendships I have made through blogging. (You might like to read Donna’s recent post ‘The Importance of Reaching Out’ where she shares our evening and another blogging get-together that happened the same weekend.)
During the conversation, Donna mentioned that the reason she enjoyed my blog was because she felt it was providing a service with relevant information and inspiration. She was very complimentary about me and my blog which was lovely but also surprisingly made me feel a little pressured. Here was an intelligent, beautiful woman and my friend, telling me what an inspiration I was to her and others, yet inside I was definitely not feeling inspired.
I felt a fraud because during my cruise I felt 99% sure I would not continue with blogging when I returned home. I also felt a weight of responsibility to my readers to continue providing good content to enrich and enhance their lifestyles.
I felt I had exhausted all my ideas for blog posts or what I did have to offer, had already been presented by others, so what was the point?
One of the highlights of the trip was a visit to the Colombia Icefield. Not only did we see snow for the first time ever, we also were able to walk on the Athabasca glacier and fly the Aussie flag. Stuck in the middle of no where, freezing cold and loving every minute of the stark beauty surrounding us, I started to feel the inkling of what I needed to change in my life. In the stillness and silence of the glacier, I began to find clarity on what is important to me, what I won’t compromise on in life and what I can let go of.
As I write this post, I’ve been home for two days and have started walking along the beach to start my day. I have decided to take my own advice from Self-Care in September and have created a new morning ritual. Something that works for me, not something I feel I need to do because of websites and social media which offer so much ‘advice’ on how we should be living our lives. Most of this advice is very valid however, I’ve come to realise that ‘one size does not fit all’ and we need to determine what advice is best for us as individuals.
This is the new me, finally committing to living life on my terms and accepting that there is time for all I want to do.
Walking along the beach, relaxed and with no time constraints has brought some enthusiasm and creativity back. Reflecting on our trip, I realised that I was experiencing a sense of freedom and I like that feeling.
Before my trip, I had explored many different paths to take but I understand now that I was just trying to fill in my time rather than actually enjoying the experience and opportunities each day brings.
Over the next few months I will be making some changes which I’m starting to feel excited about. I know where I am going, I feel excited by the ideas that are starting to swirl in my mind. Watch this space!
Are you feeling restless or wanting to make some changes? Do you feel sometimes that you are overwhelmed with ‘advice’ from various websites and through social media? I would love to hear your thoughts.
P.S. It is a few days since I wrote this post and I’m feeling excited. I’m not sure if it was baring my soul to you all and feeling a burden lifted or I’ve come back with a new way of living my life. Whatever it is I’m feeling good and ready for the next chapter.